In chaos, when my thoughts feel out of order, when things are not getting anywhere, I fail to ask for wisdom. Instead, I go about my day keeping the mess that invades my mind, and it projects through out my day. Recently, I have faced times where I am hungry for more of God's Word, Presence, and Wisdom. Where moments of chaos are unacceptable, and His wisdom is necessary. Truth is, searching could only lead to revelation. Not just any revelation, but a revelation that is satisfying. One beyond myself, my agenda, my thoughts. I am relentless until my eyes are open to what is truth. In fact, not only through His word do I find it but through those around me. What I may not see in me, those before me, ahead of me, do. It is only supernatural how God makes each individual part of a bigger picture, a puzzle piece. Key people in my life pour into me this truth, and make this revelation clear.
About three days ago, someone dearly to me (definitely a spiritual guide and example), had to resume and make a book report on leadership qualities. One of them was integrity. After reading his responses, it lead me to look it up.
Integrity: "...the quality of being honest and having strong moral principles; moral uprightness," "...the state of being whole and undivided," "internal consistency or lack of corruption...".
At that moment, I felt to put my life under a microscope and align it to this word. I asked for God to search me, and show me where I wasn't standing firm on all biblical principles, where I was not honest, where there was corruption. A prayer I thought was my everyday cry, but at the mention of this word, it became so real, an exact measure of life. I desire to be a person of integrity.
He speaks loud and soft, but always clear. Undeniable is His voice. I cannot deny the works of His Holy Spirit in me. These past few days since the time I read that, have been nothing but His Spirit saying, "See? Do you see that?" All of them pointing out things I was blind or even numb to. From actions filtered through my past, to present thoughts and emotions. There's no doubt in my mind, the things I find impossible to change, will.
Today God wanted me, and you, to know that the process is not by our own strength but through His power, which is His Spirit. The same spirit that dwells in us. As we seek, the puzzle pieces come together. Everyday they become more obvious. In search of wisdom, I found that the process began with a step essential to gain it. A divine wisdom that would illuminate dark, forgotten, and areas of my life that I considered messes. And that step was to address my integrity. My perception of it was blunt, but in order to gain the wisdom I long for, it needs to be addressed though God's power. Only then will it be evident in my thoughts, my actions, and my surroundings. Today God spoke. Using this quote found though Bill Johnson speaking about the nature of wisdom, that goes along with 2 Chronicles 9:3-4;
"Divine wisdom springs from integrity, and becomes manifest through creative expression with excellence as its standard. Wherever we find ourselves operating in any of these three expressions we are being touched by divine wisdom. " -A Life of Miracles. Published by Destiny Image
